I just miss you. A lot. Too much .
1. Volleyball.2. My love life.
3. Someone's secret i'm very very curious to know about. (not Yikming)
4. I'm just tired. Deprivation of sleep.
5. I realised my studies aint improving. They're getting worse.
So, well, we lost the match again today.
I was at fault. Missed so many of the balls.
Was on the verge of crying, of breaking down. Just because i could'nt accept i was wrong.
I could'nt accept criticism, i could'nt accept scoldings.
I felt like punching someone right in the face then.
But obviously i wouldnt.
Our team was so quiet on court.
It was like we were playing a silent game.
No laughter, no cheers(besides ace), no encouragement (only scoldings) , no calling of names, and no hyperness.
It was like how we played against Peicai.
Why were we like that? i'll never know .
Everyone's mood was just down.
Including mine.
I'm so sorry for making so many mistakes. I'm sorry for not jumping as high as your want me to.
It's not that i dont want to , i did try.
Sorry .
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I miss you like crazy.
You'll never understand, never know.
I feel like we're so distant.
I just wished we could be closer, much closer <3
I love you <3
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AHH.
You know, its really interesting to find out who someone likes.
So, yeah, i'm dying to know who someone likes.
Cause its just so unexpected for him to fall in love.
He just seems like that kind of guy who does'nt care a thing about relationships and stuff.
(I'm talking about a senior :b)
Well, im just sooooo curious! Kaypoh :b
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Okay, i shall get some good rest today .
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I can't be bothered to study.
I give up.
I dont want to anymore.
DAMMIT :(
I HATE EVERY SINGLE SUBJECT.
NOW INCLUDING ENGLISH.
I HATE ARGUMENTATIVE ESSAYS.
DAMN.
I should stop saying all those words. Seriously.
But i cant help it, it just comes out naturally.
Habit.
SORRY :(
to my volleyball team mates .
to people i've said nasty things about them behind their backs. (eg. joy i know i should'nt have. )
to coach.
to branden.
to hanmin. I just feel that i haven't been that good a friend to you. :/
to all those i said , SMILE ALWAYS to. Cause i know its hard to at times.
But just try. As how i'm doing now.
;)
Posted on Friday, 1 July 2011 @ 6:16 pm
